Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Hey Everyone! I just wanted to show some of the sweet photographs my friend Suzanne Hart was able to catch. Suzanne- you are amazing!! Mark and I just died over these pictures. Photography says so much- what a great talent to have and share with others. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

This is Mark's favorite picture. It's now the screen saver on all our computers. Isn't he an angel?

Is this kid wearing his daddy's face or what?

This is our nativity baby.

Isn't this just the sweetest? We're a family now and we're so happy.
Mommy's precious boy

I love that babies have a natural reflex to hold your hand. Why aren't we this guileless?

Mark and I love this little one so much. He has no idea how much joy and light he's already brought to our lives- even from the first day we knew about him. We actually found out about him on March 10th of this year. Last year on March 10th I had my d&c.. I was so grateful to have happy news on that particular day. It was another one of our Father's many tender mercies He's shown Mark and me.

It's so rough being in a basket!

I guess this is the end.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Well, it's almost 1AM...

I heard once that when a child is born the mother is born also. I didn't really understand this quote until recently.
Sunday was my first day back to church. I hadn't really been out of my little baby world a lot but being there made me feel like a new creature. I'm different-changed. Thanks to my little 9 lbs. 2 oz. of life that I get to hang out with all day and all night, I feel that my capacity to love has just exploded. It's like I'm looking at everyone through different eyes.
In the nursery there was this darling little boy Mason who is just getting used to nursery and he missed his mommy so bad he was pouring out these huge tears down his cheeks. I had to take him to her and I as I was holding him I was just filled with so much love and empathy for this little boy. In his little world this was a major event. I found myself saying to his mom, "He was being so brave" That's what I tell Sawyer when he's upset because we're chaniging his diaper, taking a bath, getting him dressed, etc. In his world these things are HUGE and so he has to be comforted through them. It made me think about perspective. How many things in our lives are HUGE- but our Heavenly parents know them to be inconsequential but still they soothe us through them anyway.
There was also this teacher who didn't have any students this week so she could go to Relief Society. She's a middle-aged mom but she was really nervous about going to Relief Society so I asked her if she wanted me to go with her for a few minutes. Anyway, I ended up staying there with her until the end because otherwise she would've sat all alone on the front row. I'm really glad I did. She's older than me, but I felt like I wanted to cradle her and protect her and make sure she knew she wasn't alone. I really feel that this new love I have for my Sawyer is helping look at others in a more Christ-like way. We are all children who just want to be loved and taken care of!
The other experience I had on Sunday was after feeding Sawyer he fell asleep all cuddled and sweet on my shoulder. I thought this was a perfect opportunity to get some reading in, so I started reading this book our pediatrician gave us (it's the closest thing anyone has to an owner's manual for a baby). Anyway, as I was reading I had this strong thought come to my mind, "Never multi-task when it comes to Sawyer." I thought that was pretty powerful, so I put my book away and just enjoyed the time I had cuddling with my little boy. (Yup, I'll probly neva reed anuther buuk in ma life! Hee Hee) I started thinking about what a precious time this is. I'll never have this time with Sawyer again. I know it's not very realistic to not multi-task when you have more than one child, but for me and my situation in life right now, I can afford to take a nap with my boy for a few hours and not worry about time wasted. I was really grateful for those realizations.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Here's Sawyer's first teddy bear. His Auntie Noel brought this for him right after he was born. I thought that was so sweet of her.

This is Sawyer's first car ride. I get a kick out of how Mark loves to bundle- he knows how cold I get so whenever we go camping he's always bundling me up and making me the softest, warmest spots to sleep in.. it's so cute- this boy was so comfy on his ride home... Mark loved the little cover Amber brought us. He said, "Oh yeah, no breeze is getting in there!"

This was Sawyer's first morning at our home. He did really good the first night.

This is after his first bath. He really didn't like it too much. Mark got him all clean, my mom filmed it, and I was on binky duty. Between the three of us he got pretty clean.

This was his first time in the swing. He was absolutely thrilled as you can see. We know he must like it because he can sleep for hours in that thing!
So I know it's December but I'm still in the Thanksgiving mood. I wonder why... maybe because I have soooo much to be grateful for. My heart is so full!! Thank you all for your sweet comments on our last post. I wrote this 5 page letter to Sawyer and those were the best clips from it. I wrote about his birth in so much detail because I want to remember it and I'm already starting to forget some little things. Oh.. I love that little boy so much. Being a mommy is the best! I'm so grateful for the opportunity. Anyway, here are a few more things that I'm really grateful for.

The first thing is that my days are going by so much faster now. At the end of my pregnancy I swear each day was 57 hours long!! Mark was so great to me. He knew I was getting restless with the usual pregosoraus wreck pastimes like watching t.v, taking a bath, playing free cell, surfing the net and everyones blogs, etc.. so he brought home a puzzle for us to put together and that was really sweet. He's such a thoughtful husband... I'm so lucky to have him!

Anne my sister-in-law is so amazing! Right now she and Ryan and their son Christopher live in our basement. They are always serving us. Anne is always thinking of others. She had these gorgeous flowers and a little Christmas outfit for Sawyer waiting for us when we got home. She cooks for us a lot- and for those who know me and how clumsy I am in the kitchen that is a HUGE blessing. I'm so grateful for Anne's example. She's one of those people I'm really glad I have the chance to get to know better.

This is my OB, Dr. Saunders. I was so grateful we caught him on his day on-call for the delivery. He was going out of town for Thanksgiving so we just barely imposed on his vacation. He is such a great doctor and I was 100% pleased with him and all the nurses- they were wonderful!

Mark and I are so lucky to have both sets of grandparents nearby. Grandparents are so much fun, aren't they? Sawyer is already loved by a great group of people.

I'm so in love with this little guy! I can't get over how many facial expressions this one little creature can make! I love all of his little noises too! He's so much fun to have around. I love him to bits!

This is for Suzanne. I'm sure all of you moms can relate to why I'm grateful for this little life saver!

Liberty was in Colorado when Sawyer was born, but it was so fun to have her come and visit for the first time. We're very thankful for visitors these days. It's so much fun to see everyone.
Adam and Mily came right after Sawyer was born. My face was like double the size because of the iv fluids so I think I was a bit scary. I'm glad the swelling has gone down. I couldn't even recognize myself for awhile after delivery-- my face was like the good year blimp!
I'm grateful to have two sisters who became mothers before me. They always have good advice for me!
Isn't Amber gorgeous! I love this picture of her and Sawyer. She looks like an angel!

I'm so grateful for my beautiful mom who was Sawyer's first babysitter while Mark and I went to see The Sasquatch Gang- by the same directors of Napoleon Dynamite. I thought it was pretty funny... I was laughing hysterically, but I'm in my constant state of late-night delirium these days so I don't know if I'm a great critic right now.

I love seeing all of his facial expressions. Even if this is a poop-induced smile I'll take it!still love to see it!
I love those moments that make you laugh really hard. After we set up our Christmas tree, Fiona decided to get in on the festive spirit and jumped in the decorations. I thought it was cute so I grabbed my camera and caught her in the middle of a yawn. (If you look really close you can see her one and only fang). Anyway, just after I took it our tree fell right where she was so I told Mark that was her facial expression as the tree was coming at her. I laughed pretty hard about that. She's got those cat-like reflexes so she was was a fine feline.

I love the newborn stage!! I feel so blessed that we haven't had any illnesses or problems with feeding or sleeping. We are extremely blessed. Sawyer is such a content, easy baby so far. I'm so grateful for his long stretches of sleep and for all the help Mark gives me. He'll take him for the whole night so I can get some sleep sometimes.

I make up dialogue for Sawyer in my head. Mostly he's saying, "Mommy, what are we doing this for?" or "Mommy, I'm ready to eat" in this one he's saying, "Hey, How you doin'?"