Thursday, November 29, 2007

Dear Sawyer,

I thought I would take this time I have while you are sleeping to tell you about the best day your dad and I have ever had. It was seven days ago when you came into our lives. I just want you to know all about that important day and all the details.

On Wednesday I had a high water leak, but I wasn't completely sure so I just started cleaning the house and making sure all the laundry was done, etc. I got in the shower after mopping up the bathroom and while I was doing my hair I felt a pretty significant gush of water- Auntie Amber teased that if that happened our dog Kelty would come and lick it up—but she was outside and the mop was right there so we avoided that scenario. Your dad had been out doing a few errands for work and was going to be back in 45 minutes to an hour but I called him and said, “I need you. We need to go right now.”

We were admitted around 2:20 and around 4:10 Dr. Saunders arrived and checked me and said that the bag of waters wasn’t all the way ruptured so he broke it but I barely noticed. Your dad said, “I’ve been wanting to do that for three weeks now.” And Dr. Saunders said, “Well, you got your wish.”

At around 5:00 they came and took my blood to check for signs of pre-eclampsia (which I never knew you could get during labor but you can). They ended up giving me Magnesium Sulfate to help avoid seizures.

Because I started pushing around 9:25 everyone thought you would be born around 10 or 10:30. Well, it ended up taking a bit longer. Your daddy started teasing that maybe you would be born on Thanksgiving like he was if this lasted until midnight. We were about one push away from having you here at around 11:56- so your dad said, “Maybe we should rest during the next two contractions” In my mind I didn’t think we were so close because they had been telling me for quite some time that we were almost there, so I was grateful to have a little breather. Well at 11:59 another contraction started and our nurse said, “I think we’re close enough” so your dad counted “Push 1..2..3..” and you came!! I was surprised and thought to myself, “It worked this time!” And you were here at 52 seconds past midnight. A thanksgiving baby like your dad.

My first impression of you was that you were really long! I was instantly in love with you and called to you as they took you to the table saying things like, “Hey baby, can you hear me? I’m so glad you’re here. We’ve waited so long to have you. I can’t believe it’s our son! I’m so happy.” I was just gushing out to you! I truly felt so genuinely happy.

They took you and measured you and I guess you peed all over the nurses…serves them right for having to scrub you so hard- hee hee! Everyone was surprised to find out you were 19” and 8 lbs. 15.2 oz. It really didn’t shock me. Although I measured on the small side you felt big inside me- always very active and making huge motions. You were just perfect for me and my body.

After they measured you Mark got to hold you and seeing him as a father for the first time made me cry. He was glowing with pride and just radiating so much love for you.

Then they brought you to me and I remember thinking you had the cutest lips and a little button nose like Ruston and Damaris’ kids. I thought you were absolutely beautiful. They said you had auburn hair… I couldn’t believe it! Your dad and I never thought we could have a red haired child. Only time will tell if it stays that way. I couldn’t believe I was looking at my boy.

My family started to come in and my dad held you first and that was really special- I love my daddy so much.

My mom and Amber helped me feed you for the first time and you did really well- at almost 9 lbs. you came into this world hungry.

Aside from meeting you, the very best thing that I gained from your birth was that I’ve fallen in love with your daddy all over again. I first fell in love with a buddy from high school. Now I’m in love with the father of my child. He is so crazy about you and seeing that melts me to the core. He’s so excited to feed you, burp you, bathe you, and try out all of your toys like the swing and the bouncer. He especially loves giving you a bottle. While giving you one he said, “I could get used to this.” He was so completely there for me during your birth- the time when I needed him the very most. Your birth has brought us closer to one another and that is exactly what I wanted out of our birthing experience. We are so in love and we are so head over heels for you.

We have this orchid that hasn’t bloomed since we got it almost two years ago. When we came home from the hospital two beautiful yellow flowers had bloomed and it really touched me to see the symbolism of watering this non-flowering plant for two years and to finally see those happy flowers on the day we brought you home. Your dad and I have wanted you here for so long and now I just want to wrap every moment in a box and keep it forever. I have everything now that I have you. When I hold you I think of how you are Heavenly Mother’s son and I want to be as much like her as I can and raise you like she would. Well, I gotta go… you’re crying and I’ve got to go wipe away your tears. I love you son. Mommy

Friday, November 9, 2007

These are a few of my favorite things...
Since it's November, I figured I would blog about all the things I'm grateful for. It really is crazy because I planned on starting with all the little things, but then I just keep thinking of more and more- like the fact that Amber and I still laugh deliriously when we get tired- lately our favorite is "Lay off me I'm starving!!!" (If any of you have seen that Chris Farley sketch..) anyway, and how my doctor told me about this mom in the delivery room who started out like, "Oh, I'm good, I'm good" and then switching to "Give me the epidural" like Chris Farley.. anyway I love getting a good laugh in.
Here are a few more of my favorite things-

Okay, this is a really small thing, but for me it's a big deal. I'm not a naturally organized/spotless person at all, I really have to work at it. My bathroom was pretty much a mess with all my "gear" and I would always spread it out all over the counter and I literally drove Mark out of our bathroom into the kitchen bathroom.. oops! Anyway, since I haven't been working I've had time to basically gut my house and get it organized and cleaned up before the new arrival and I'm so happy. My bathroom is so much more functional and relaxing!! I know it's kind of a weird thing to be so excited about, but I stressed over our disorganized, messy house all last year when I was working, but there was no time for me to focus on it. I'm so happy I've been able to paint and get things the way I really want them- it really gives me peace.

This is an orchid my friend Jana gave to me almost two years ago. It had these beautiful yellow flower at first and is only now starting to get blossoms again (I didn't know I was supposed to cut the stalk down to 2"). I'm so excited for when I get to see this flower in bloom again! I love orchids and lilies- they are so beautiful!

This is a wall sconce that I just hung in my bathroom. I love lighting is all up at night and taking long baths... it's so relaxing and I know it's a treat that I probably won't get to enjoy as much once our little one is here. That's okay though, I'm living it up now!

This probably makes some of you cat haters cringe... but Fiona will come purr right in my ear and it actually really helps me relax. I'm so uncomfortable lately that I get really tense at night. She's like my Tylenol PM that I'm usually addicted to.

Mark and I also decided that she needed a little bath before the baby comes, so he put on two pair of really long wool socks over his arms and dunked her in the bath. She still got him soooo bad! She cried like a baby---maybe that was a mistake!

Fiona is also learning not to get in the baby gear like the pack-n-play, the carseat, the bouncer, etc.. Well, the other day I caught her in the bassinet and I keep a water gun in the nursery for just such an occasion. I started to skirt her and expected her to jump out immediately, because she hates water (as mentioned in the story above) but she just laid there in shock like, "What are you doing to me?" Finally I stopped getting her body and got her on the forehead and she jumped out... She is one crazy kitty!

Mark is the sweetest husband ever!! He paints my toenails for me now that I can't reach them. He does a pretty good job, eh? It's so cute to see his huge hands try and manage the tiny brushes. He's getting the technique down. Whenever I think about that story about the elderly man who did his wife's nails that Elder Wirthlin shared in conference I start to cry because of what Mark does for me. It's one of those small things that really mean a lot.

Husbands are the best! Yesterday I was having a slight emotional melt down just because I'm so tired and uncomfortable, and I want to do things, but I'm too lazy, and I want Sawyer to come, but I'm nervous about actually being a mom, and I want him to be healthy and the delivery to go well.... yadda yadda- I'm sure all of you mommies have been there. Anyway, Mark found me bawling in the tub and he's like, "We need to go to Kneaders and a park for lunch" So we went to Kneaders, (my fav) and ate at the Scera Park and swung on their swings. I wish I had a picture of me in my 9 mos. pregnant glory swinging on a swing. My shadow looked pretty funny. He totally cheered me up- he is the absolute best! I love him so much!

Mark also surprised me by picking up our crib. Since we already have a bassinet and a pack-n-play that he can use for awhile, we were planning on getting it around Christmas to kind of spread out the baby expenses, but he just went and picked it up, along with this wedge pillow Zoraya told us about. It goes under your belly to help support all that extra weight. Good call Zoraya- I love that thing!! That seriously meant a lot to me that he would surprise me like that.

This is my new favorite cd. It's "One Cell in the Sea" by A Fine Frenzy. If you don't have it- you should get it- trust me you'll LOVE it! I honestly listened to it for days in a row when I first got it. I've backed off now, but I want to learn how to put tunes on my blog just so you guys can hear this band... they rule!!! So, if anyone can tell me how to do that it would be great!
I heard the first track playing at Barnes and Noble and knew I had to buy it. It's my favorite song lately and it's called, "Come on Come out" do you think that has anything to do with my pregnancy???

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Happy Halloween!
Halloween was so much fun this year! We had a doctor's appointment that morning where I drew a jack-o-latern on my urine sample... the nurses must think I'm crazy... but I'm not- just festive. We found out that I'm at a 2.5 and 80% effaced- pretty crazy, eh? It's getting closer!

This is the first year Mark and I dressed up and celebrated Halloween. How could you not dress up with an accessory like my prego-belly?
The teletummy and the grungy pirate

I was trying to take his facial hair off with a kiss.

This was the best I could do.

Zoraya showcasing the tummy. Man, soon I'm going to pop!
Amber and Bryan... mullets rule!! and their little Eyeore

Mad Scientist Ruston and little bunny Hailey

I decided to go with the "Teletummy" and Marky was Fall
for the family party. He made his costume 15 min. before the party by hot gluing leaves outside to his shirt.

I helped out at the ward Halloween Party with the Primary cakewalk.

After all that we went to Anahi's party. Nick and Zoraya... very appropriately Greek god and goddess.